I've been out and about for a while again, 3 weeks or so. It's strange how much I'm out visiting people and going places now. Well it feels strange for me. Compared to how it was before. When I only went up to visit my family once or twice a year. It's a lot more traveling now. I like it.
I went down to Lkpg again. Stayed a few days with D. Then of to my friend L for a few days before I went back to D for a while again and celebrated his B-day I met S and her bro too. Been taking a lot of pics, watched D climb and picked a LOT of cherries. And some strawberries too. Tasty as fuck.
Got some creative stuff done with L. We did a lot of talking too ofc. Haven't been social with her for ages now. Too bad she got a bit sick while I was there, but I hope she still thinks that it was worth it. I do.
Had a long chat with C about health and stuff which got me thinking about life and everything again. She recommended that I go see someone to help me with my mental issues. A very good idea ofc. I could still use some help even tho some of my issues seem to be gone now.
I'm no longer as scared as I used to be when I meet new people. It's not as hard anymore to talk to them and be social. I'm not so worried about if I'm being annoying or not to them now. Might this be the start of a growing self confidence perhaps? I applied for a job today. It was scary at first but I did it.
I've checked on things I said yesterday that I should check on today. That's a good step. I think I might start with my "to do" lists again. As far as today goes in that case it will be a lot of "done / check" marks on it. I've probably done all the "have to"s today. Might go on to do some creative fiddling now and just enjoy.
I'm feeling very calm and at ease right now. It's nice. Very nice.
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